Gibbous Phase

 

The waxing moon is approaching fulfillment, but it's not full yet.  You're soul is idling at the brink of vision and revelation in this life.  You are evaluating the journey, analyzing your life, and seeking ways to bring the perfection of the spirit that unites us all into everyday life.  This is a lifetime of healing, service, and devotion to something greater than both yourself and your visions.  This is your soul's time to grind against reality and reach for perfection, knowing it will only be found after you're long gone. 

You are at your best when analyzing and improving structures.  The physical world is a barrier to your path.  Can you push through outer resistance with deep devotion, humility, and wheelbarrows of humor?  Only then can your birth vision be realized in the pragmatic world.  There is a deep dissatisfaction that gnaws on your heart and on your bones because you think that you'll never be perfect.  But what is perfect?  For some it may be red; for others blue.  It's subjective.  Learn to define your own perfection with all its wonderful flaws.  In this lifetime you must learn to celebrate your flaws!  Show your wounds to the world and walk in your grief.  There you will find joy and a lot more too.  For you walk the path of the wounded healer who must sacrifice everything to reach fulfillment.

Through continual refinement, adjustment, and compromise your commitment will be tested and you'll find that humility and humor are your best allies.  Dive into your creativity and forge ways of giving your life in service to others in ways that do not rob your soul of passion.  It's important that you learn to eliminate aspects of your life that are not functional or operational.  Your mind is like a razor blade, sharp and able to notice the subtle flaws, even in yourself.  By being compassionate you can overcome criticism and self-effacement to express the perfection of the Spirit in everyday life. 

Don't get snagged upstream on the details of life.  There is a whole river you must carefully navigate.  This is the rocky river of your life, always adjusting here, fine-tuning there, until finally you're flowing!  Flow with the process of life one step at a time, chapter-by-chapter, scene-by-scene.  And for heavens sake, stay centered and present in the current chapter!  It's tempting to peek towards the end of your story to see what the Full Moon will bring.  Simply ignore it by focusing on mastering the skills you've come to train and use your time wisely by giving those skills humbly to the world through service. 

Don't be afraid to serve many apprenticeships.  And equally, don't be afraid to recognize when you've achieved mastery after devoting yourself to a skill for at least thirty years.  Your whole life is about training, honing, fine-tuning your soul through hardship, discipleship, service, and devotion to a spiritual craft, even if the actual work you do in the world is tedious.  Just do it with the presence of a Zen Master!  It is this kind of enlightened focus, seeing divine craftsmanship and presence in the mundane and simple that will ultimately guide you to the mature illumination.  The most important ability to cultivate is devotion to life and to your craft.